Miles From Fenway

The Emotional Rollercoaster
March 9, 2005, 3:30 am
Filed under: dating

It’s still going. The ups and downs. Which I guess is understandable considering the speed in which everything happened. I just can’t stop thinking about it. Thinking that I never should have gone there, never should have gotten so drunk that it seemed like a good idea.

My mother is sending me a copy of “the rules”. She’s doing it as a joke. But it has to make me wonder, is that what I am supposed to be doing? Am I supposed to be playing hard to get, not making myself so emotionally available? I can’t DO that shit. I wear my heart on my sleeve. If I want to do something, see someone, I’m going to.

And I hate that I am letting this rule my life right now. There’s so much going on right now, work is killing me, I have family members who are all stressed out, and the Red Sox are playing in Spring Training, and yet all I can think about is this.

And now I’ve got MM and her boyfriend in the same room acting all sweet.

I’ve got to get the hell out of here.


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